Thursday, August 19, 2010

Hard Night

 It's been a hard night. We began our new routine today. Ava started school and dance, Elsies first day of preschool. I should be excited right? Not really. The reality when I went upstairs to get Avas clothes (Ava and Emmie share the same closet) layed out kinda hit me like a ton of bricks this morning. No bus came at 8:15. Family scriptures and prayer just wasn't the same without my Em bug there. No strawberry shortcake playing on the kitchen tv as I was getting lunches and bags packed. After the girls were off to school I got the remainder of the stuff wrapped up at the mortuary with my hubby, mom and dad. It was nice to have closure in that area but it hit me very hard. Now the reality of life going on and my heart trying to heal. I don't think it ever will but J gave me a book that I started reading tonight. Here are couple quotes from some prophets that helped me.




In the resurrection the spirit will re-enter it's body, which initially will be in exactly the same state as when the spirit left it. Bodies that were sick, infirm or deformed will then be restored to heath and perfection, apparently almost instantly– as Amulek says, to a "proper and perfect frame." (Alma 11:43.) Nor will age at time of death determine a resurrected being's appearance. President Joseph Fielding Smith said:


Old people will not look old when the come forth from the grave. Scars will be removed. No one will be bent or wrinkled.... Of course, children who die do not grow in the grave. They will come forth with their bodies as they were laid down, and then they will grow to the full stature of manhood or womanhood after the resurrection, but all will have their bodies fully restored. 


Thus we know that those who lose little children and are worthy will not only be reunited with them but will have the blessing and opportunity of raising them in the glorious circumstances of the resurrection. Joseph Smith gave total assurance regarding the place of small children who die.


The lord takes many away, even in infancy that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of the present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth; therefore if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil, and we shall soon have them again.

How nice to know that I get Emmie back at the age of 8 1/2 and have the opportunity to raise her. That is such a miraculous gift. What a sweet promise. I am grateful for that knowledge to know if I do my part, I get to be with her again. I know I will have tough days ahead but with reading, praying and searching my scriptures, I will endure.





11 comments:

Lydia said...

Getting back to everyday life has to be tough. I have read all of that before and knew that you would be able to raise Emmie. What a comfort it is to have that knowledge! You are such a special woman who had the opportunity to have a perfect child in your home. Heavenly Father knew that you and Jason could do it. What a special blessing for her and you guys. I'll still be praying for you everyday and night! Your girls are beautiful! Heather's little Gracie has red hair like your Elsie. In case you didn't know it, she is moving back to AZ so you two will have to get together. Take care and remember that you are loved!!!

Jenna said...

Tiff once it is all over and the new routine sets in is when it hit me too. You are right the scriptures and prayer is where you will find comfort. I have a book I think you'd love and was so helpful after my Mom. It's called "The Message" by Lance Richardson. If you want I can send it to you. You are always in my prayers. Love you guys.

AudyCamp said...

I've heard also that "The Message" is a must-read book! Aw...Tiff. What can I say. My heart aches so much for you-for all the firsts you will go through..No one can ever know really what you are experiencing right now...no one but the Lord because He has felt your exact sorrow & pain. I know you & Jason will become even closer to the Savior & Heavenly Father going through this healing process and you will be in the hollow of His hand.

I love the Resurrection quotes you have on here...How awesome will that be to finish raising Emmie & to hear her SING the words to Strawberry Shortcake. :)

Love you Tiff-Praying for you constantly.

Kara McDowell said...

Tiffany, what a comfort it was to read your inspiring words and the sweet sweet inspired comments from the book you are reading. I know that a lot of times in life our own answers to prayers come through those we love and care about and I can honestly say that your words did that for me today. Thank you for sharing your strength and your desire to want to be a better person. I realize that loosing a child in this life is a lot different than loosing a parent. Or maybe it's not, I don't know, but loosing anyone we love is heartbreaking and devastating even when we know the plan of salvation and what we have to look forward to in the eternities. Knowing that doesn't always make the saddness go away, we are human and we have to mourn and grieve in our respected ways. No one can decide how long or in what ways we need to grieve. That is for us to determine on our own and with the help of a loving Heavenly Father and Savior. Please know that you are in my continued prayers and I will continue to pray for you and your sweet family. I know that in the coming weeks the prayers offered by those that love you and your sweet family will carry you through. You are an inspiration to me and so many! May God begin to heal your heart! Lots of love!

Shari Goodman said...

Thank you so much for sharing such personal emotions with everyone. You are an inspiration to us all and your testimony is beautiful.

Elsie was a doll at preschool and was happy and cute as can be. Thanks for sharing her with me!

Heather said...

Tiffany,
I don't know you or your family but I have enjoyed reading yours and your sister's blogs. My heart has been broken right along with your family's. I am amazed at your strength. My thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you.
Heather

Tracey said...

I know everybody's life must go on... but ours has not! I love you and wish I could take your pain away!

A day in the life of the Campbell's said...

Thinking of you. Thank you for posting.

Shawni said...

Tiffany, I just want to tell you how much we have been thinking of you and your family over the last week. I got to hear most of what you and your husband said at the funeral (I snuck out of the nursery for a little bit), and I have to tell you that you two brought in such an amazing spirit of strength and faith. I'm so thankful for your outstanding example and want you to know we are sending many prayers your way, especially in all the aftermath. I know Heavenly Father sure must be looking out for you from above and wanting to carry you through this time (probably with Emmie at His side). Much love, Shawni

Lacey said...

She is with you Tiff. I love you all so much and pray for you every single day. Beautiful post

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